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Sunday, September 07, 2014

Father's Day.

Father's day is one of my three saddest days of the year along with March 14 (the day of my dad's funeral) and October 20 (my dad's birthday). If you've been reading my blog for a while you'll know that he died when I was 8 years old and I spent a long time grieving. Last year I started seeing a counsellor to deal with my issues surrounding him as it had been 13 years since he died and I was still holding on too tightly.



This is what I do know about my dad: he was born in 1962, was a very active & sporty person who loved swimming & going to the football. He was passionate. He loved Jimmy Barnes & Cold Chisel. He had his own business as a master painter. His sister died when he was 5 and his dad died when he was 8. And most of all he was an incredible dad to my brother & I.


Last year I found the eulogy for his funeral written by my Uncle Robert (his brother) who sadly passed away two years ago and this is what one of the paragraphs said: One Sunday morning Craig decided he wanted out of Prince Henry and escaped in his wheel chair down Anzac Parade on the way to Coogee beach to watch Erin and Tom in the Minnows. If it wasn't  for the diligence of one of his carers he would have made it. 

He was strong and even though his body was weak in the last year of his life, his mind wasn't. I definitely get my strength of mind & stubbornness from him.





Although it's hard to think about all the moments he never got to be there for like my graduations and all the moments he won't be there for in the future like my wedding or the days my kids are born I have to just remember to be grateful for the time we did have together because 8 years of perfection is worth holding on to and remembering. ♥

16 comments:

  1. Erin,
    Thank you for sharing this with us. I want to say something but I know there is no way I can understand your pain or loss so I didn't know if I should, but I want you to know that I care and I'm here for you. I am just so happy that you shared this. Your photos are beautiful.

    Love you lots x

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    1. Thanks Meg ♥ I really appreciate it.

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  2. Stay strong Erin!! Your readers are here for you. Thank you for sharing this. xx

    Sammie
    my blog

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    1. Thanks so much Sammie! I'm so thankful for my internet friends :)

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  3. Your words are beautiful, Thank you for sharing x

    cultkid.blogspot.com

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  4. I admire you for your openness and bravery in sharing your grief on your blog. My dad died when I was 13 years old and it has hit me so bad. Now I am 25 and coping ok but missing him very much.

    Katrina Sophia

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    1. I'm so sorry Katrina :( If you ever want to talk I'm here x

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  5. So sweet and I'm so sorry for the loss of your father. My father died just this past Spring so grieving is fresh on my mind and this post was very meaningful to me as I know how precious these memories are. :)

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  6. Stay strong dear, my thoughts are with you baby.

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  7. I know it must be hard to share such personal moments/thoughts - and you've done so on several occasions, too. For that I think you deserve utmost support and understanding. Hopefully that's what you've achieved here. Lots of love to you, Erin :) x

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    1. When I was a bit younger it would've taken me a lot to actually talk about things like this but now I have to for my own sanity and it's almost cleansing to talk about it. Thanks Rachel <3

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  8. I am so sorry for your loss Erin. I'm glad your able to cherish the valuable moments spent with your dad. Hope your well.

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