As some of you might know I don't know what I'm doing with myself. I'm searching for what my career path is going to be as nothing seems to fit so far. At the moment I work in a small wholesale beauty business part-time and although I do enjoy it there and have been fortunate to have it as a first job, I don't feel I could stay there for much longer as I need a new challenge and am not truly happy or satisfied.
Over the last eight years I've considered: admin/office support, writer, psychologist, childcare, personal assistant and nothing has stuck. Being a full time writer would be quite stressful for me and I really don't want to spend years studying psychology because Uni just isn't for me. For some reason I've discounted childcare in the past because I want kids of my own someday and don't want it to be tainted or ruined for me by the time I have some of my own.
I've been lacking direction in my career ever since I graduated from university one year ago - it's such a broad degree that it's difficult to pick an avenue to go down. The obvious choice was to go into a career with computers as I excel in that area but I want to become a more active person and that can happen when I'm running around after kids all day. I'm just missing joy in my life at the moment and working in childcare will provide me with stable, secure job as well as some creativity and lightness.
It feels really satisfying to have a little bit of direction for the first time. I have motivation to work towards this goal and I know I would be really good at it. This will sound a bit funny to some of you but earlier in the year I wrote to Georgina Walker (a psychic) about when I should move to Sydney as that was my goal at the time. She responded that spring was the best time to move but I need to get a second job, even if it was in babysitting so I can save up money to make it happen. After I first brought up childcare to my mum a childcare story was advertised on the news - literally as I was saying the words. I really feel like everything is leading me to do this and the anxiety I felt just a few hours ago has now been replaced with motivation and the sense that this is the right thing to do.