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Friday, June 13, 2014

Ch-Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

Four and a half hours. That's how long I spent getting my hair done today. Whilst I was there I was struck by inspiration - I had a thought about a blind boy and what it would be like to not know how people looked. It made me think of this quote by Andy Warhol: "People should fall in love with their eyes closed." Imagine actually falling in love without your sight and just relying on your intuition and other senses.

I had a flash - a vision, if you will - the boy was walking across the school courtyard and the new girl at the school spotted him and thought he was cute. They get paired up for an english assignment and end up falling in love with each other. The vision continued and I just got my phone out and started writing. Now I have a short film. It's just crazy how something like that can happen when I'm just sitting in the hairdressing chair listening to the person next to me complain about having to fly in economy instead of business class.


A few people in my life have told me that I'm a writer. I tend to think I just ramble in written word form and most of the time can't stop. Often I write out a whole paragraph of a thought or opinion of mine and then immediately delete it because it just rambly nonsense that no one cares about. I want to try to focus my words and creative energy and actually follow through with one of my ideas. I often find it really hard to write something objective that I haven't experienced or that isn't based around true events that have happened in my life as I feel like I'm unable to flesh it out and make it real. I don't want to write something fake. If I ever publish something that is based around personal experience then I know it was real, the last thing I would want is to be called phoney or unrealistic.


I want to make a change. My goal for the rest of the year is to not be afraid. If someone asks me to go on an adventure with them I'm going to say yes - fear be damned. I'm going to try to be more active and less self-conscious when talking to people.

Also, You should go and listen to Changes by David Bowie, it's been stuck in my head since this morning. ♥

22 comments:

  1. Your hair is a really beautiful colour. I also hope you follow through with your short film, I would love to see it, it's a really great idea you've thought of xx

    www.alphabeth.co.uk

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  2. Loving the colour of your hair indeed! <3

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    1. Thank you very much Claudia :) It's a much needed change I think.

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  3. SO PRETTY, HOLY CRAP! Good luck embarking on your new 'fear free' endeavors :]

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    1. Aww thanks Christine. I think I'm going to need all the luck I can get :P

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  4. Beautiful hair colour sweet. I am the exact same, I ramble when I write and find it hard to keep it 'short and sweet'. I'd love to see this short film, it's a beautiful idea. I hope you stick to you're new found confidence. Personally, I need to stop fearing about what others think of me/or my blogs - so I understand how you feel. You're an inspiration :)

    JoJo | Sunflower Sundae

    xx

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    1. You're very sweet JoJo :)

      I really hope I could be bothered actually turning the notes on my phone into an actual screenplay but who knows.

      Don't fear opinions of those you don't know. It's stress and worry you can do without :) Just make yourself happy and proud because you'll never be able to completely please someone, let alone everyone.

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  5. The thoughts inside your head sound so much like mine! I ramble all the time as a writer. It makes me have to edit my papers and blog posts so much. There's just so many ideas all at once. I too, made a deal with myself to be less afraid this year. At times it's easy and at other times it is not so easy. I wish you the best!
    xx from the USA
    Lauren

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    1. Thanks for the lovely comment Lauren. How cool that you relate to what happens in my head - not many people do I think! I agree that being less afraid is both easy and hard but its definitely worth it :)

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  6. Oh just look at you! You gorgeous girl and those luscious locks :)

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    1. Rachel, you are the sweetest ever.

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  7. Your hair is absolutely gorgeous! Love the colour. Also I hope you follow through with your short film, as a person who never starts/finishes anything I love it when other people succeed so I wish you all the luck in the world with it x

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  8. Your hair looks beautiful! And the short film sounds really interesting... hope you bring it to fruition someday!

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  9. Hello dear!
    Love this post very much,it's so nice and pretty!
    Very inspirational!
    Hopefully you can visit my blog,would love to hear from you!
    xoxo Antonella <3

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  10. Your hair looks beautiful :)
    I hope you follow through with your short film!! Good luck <3

    Christina
    http://kissesandflowers.blogspot.com/

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    1. Thanks for the luck Christina! x

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  11. You hair looks amazing :)

    I often have moments like this too an dI make up soundtracks and moving image in my head from the tiniest bit of inspiration that you've just run with. :)

    xx

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    1. Thanks so much Meg :)

      I always have those moments revolving around my own future, never with something actually useful or worth writing about so it's hard to forget them!

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