It seems like a lot has happened in those 8 days. A girl at work left and I didn't get to say goodbye because it was last minute, my brother 'came out' to me (even though I already knew), I've had lots of strange psychic moments or things others would call "coincidences" (I don't believe in coincidences) that I don't usually have.
Doing the dishes, laundry and in general just trying to keep the house in order has been a challenge. I'm a creative person who likes to be surrounded by mess and chaos - of course there's something great about a neat, clean house but I don't function in one. Trying to contain the chaos has been difficult - near impossible.
Most of my time has been spent playing The Sims 3 in preparation for The Sims 4, watching television shows (24 and The Voice Australia mostly) and contemplating what I'm doing with my life in the next couple of years. I've saved around $6000 that I was planning on using when I moved to Sydney but I'm starting to think maybe Sydney isn't the right place for me. It may sound absurd to think that for anyone that knows me but when I think of my life, my future, it involves a white picket fence, a bunch of kids and a lovely husband. That's the dream, what I truly want. I don't want to waste money on rent for a really crappy place that doesn't feel like home. I'm an introvert and need a nice place to come home to at the end of the day. I've considered living nearly everywhere in the country - even Tasmania. But I know I need to be near a capital city, that's all I have to go off right now. It's funny that no one ever tells you how hard it is being in your twenties, older people just say it was the best time of their life. The girl that left for England said to me before she left that she thinks I'll come into my own in my 30s. She's probably right. I always thought it would be this year - at 22 years of age but it just hasn't been. It's been a mess to be honest.
Cats. I want one. There was a story on the news the other day where the RSPCA said they were basically just going to give away cats for whatever you were willing to pay as they are so over capacity and although I've never been a cat person it's made me really want one. I think my lifestyle is quite compatible with a cat's.
Not sure exactly how to end this post but I think I should stop rambling now. Please let me know if you have any thoughts on anything I said - where I should live in particular. I'm kind of at the point now where I need all the suggestions I can get because I'm out of ideas.