We all have our struggles and the things that we find harder to do than others because of the way we grew up, events in our lives or just simply because it's the way we are.
In 1999 when I was 7 years old, my father was hit by a taxi. He became paralysed and then 10 months later passed away. This means that even contemplating driving has since been a struggle for me. Earlier this year, about 5 years later than all my other friends, I decided that I had to get my Learner's License and then I would work my way up to actually learning to drive.
Keeping all of this is mind and realising that it had been 5 months that I had had my license but never driven, I decided it was time. So mum took me down to our local park and she taught me how to drive in the car park. To be honest, I felt nothing. No fear, no anxiety, but also no feeling of accomplishment. It made me feel like an idiot for building it up for so long only to feel nothing. It was a mediocre life event that we all go through and I'd built it up just like I had getting a job.
With that said, I don't think I would've felt the same if 16-year-old me was getting into that car. In school I struggled really badly with loneliness and depression after losing my dad and I only just started to move on and live life once I had started university.
I am glad I waited to drive because I know that I was ready. I didn't rush into anything, I took my time. I could've been the first of my friends to get my license because I'm a couple of months older than them but I didn't, I just did what was right for me at the time and I'm glad I did.
This was a bit of a different post from me so I hope you don't mind. I also hope you go out there and conquer one of your fears.
|These lovely little birds were on our balcony this morning and I thought it would be sweet to share.|
Before I forget to mention, I'm doing the 30 Day June Snap Challenge and will be posting a round-up of my week in photos every Saturday.
Hope to see you guys do it too. ♥