Thursday, 18 December 2014

On my quarter life crisis.

Last year after I graduated university I had a bit of a quarter life crisis. I felt lost and confused, but mostly overwhelmed as I realised that for the first time the next year of my life wasn't planned out for me and that everything was up to me from now on. All of these feelings really brought up a lot of issues for me revolving around my dad - I desperately wished he was there at the time to be my guiding light whilst I attempted to navigate my way through choppy seas. But he wasn't, he still isn't, and never will be again. At least not in a physical sense.

An amazing thing happened though - I started to see a counsellor, grieve his death all over again, and then miraculously move on. I honestly never thought that I would ever overcome the grief but I have. And in the process I've managed to learn so much more about my dad and get a picture of who he was. I've discovered cards he wrote my mum, documents such as school report cards and paperwork from when he started his own business, childhood photos, family vacations and so much more. My mum and I have been able to have open conversations about him and their relationship. One of my favourite anecdotes my mum told me recently was how they got back together after a six month break. One random night my mum said to her roommate that she was going "Craig hunting". Mum went to the local bar where she knew dad was every Friday night, walked up to him (he was with another girl) and said something along the lines of "what are we doing tonight?" He left the other girl, and mum and dad were together until the day that he died.

I initially started this post with a different end point, but as I wrote this is the conclusion that I've come to - the holidays are hard. Maybe you are missing someone, maybe it's not the happiest time of the year for you, maybe you're struggling. I've been there and it sucks. It hurts so bad and you think it will never get better, but it will. It truly will. You just need time. Let yourself grieve, hurt and be sad for as long as you need to. But I promise one day you'll wake up and realise that it doesn't hurt as bad as it once did.

Saturday, 13 December 2014

9 Last Minute Holiday Gift Ideas

I hope you like them - I've bought and know that I'm receiving some of these this Christmas and am pretty excited about it! Let me know what your last minute gift ideas are in the comments x
1/ A Beautiful Mess Happy Mail Subscription - $20 for one month, $15 for a 12 month subscription
2/ Typo Light Box - $69.95
3/ Woodwick candle - Starting at $8.95
4/ Balloon Animals - $11.50 [Sold Out]
5/ Typo Gumball Machine - $29.95
6/ Kikki-K 2015 Diary Gift Pack - $29.95
7/ Jamie Oliver's Comfort Food: The Ultimate Weekend Cookbook - $25+
8/ Polaroid Underwater Single Use Camera - $19.95
9/ Stuff Every Man Should Know Book - $15.37

Thursday, 11 December 2014

three little thoughts

I've only got a quick little update for you today - I decided to borrow Meg's 'three thoughts' series except I'm just going to post as many thoughts as I can come up with on any day that I decide to post something.

1/ My mum and I went to Myer yesterday to check out the Christmas section. Honestly, we were pretty unimpressed compared to last year's selection but I managed to get this little guy who I've creatively named Fox.

2/ While I was out I went and saw The Hunger Games: Mockingjay Part 1 with my friend in Gold Class as her birthday present. I really enjoyed the movie but I think Catching Fire is still my favourite so far. Let me know if you've seen it and what you thought - I really struggled not having Peeta there but it wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be.

3/ Is it just me or are birds everywhere at the moment? They absolutely terrify me because they're so unpredictable. Even as I was writing this one massive black bird flew into the glass window and then perched itself on the roof.